Hi! Thanks for stopping by! My name is Colleen & I am dedicating this space to my beautiful sister and best friend, Shannon. I stalked her Pinterest boards for inspiration as to what to name my new blog since much of what I write will be in her honor. I saw a quote on one of her boards that read: “The Best Job I’ve Ever Had – Being a Mom”. Ba Bam! (Shannon is smiling) HOW. PERFECT? How HER! How… me!? We three girls were raised by the single most wonderful woman in the world, our mother, and now that I am a mother myself, I know it is the BEST job I’ve ever had and will ever have. ESPECIALLY now.
As many of you already know, my amazing (I really cannot begin to explain how TRULY WONDERFUL he is) husband Doug and I plan to welcome Shannon’s boys, Connor & Danny into our (new!) home and family with wide open arms. They will become big brothers to our children, Ryan (3) and Maddie (1) and we are ALL pretty psyched! I have always loved them like my own. And now… well I just cannot imagine it any other way.
Shannon always teased that I was the “golden child”; that everything has always been easy for me. I remember her telling me a story after she came to visit when Maddie was born. She was laughing telling me about how someone asked how the delivery was. She replied (give or take): “Well but of course it was PERFECT! Her water broke. She took a shower. She did her hair, put on some makeup, jolly skipped to the hospital and out popped her perfect angel DAUGHTER! Then I believe she had diet coke and wine on demand.” We laughed and laughed and laughed. And now, as recent events have unfolded just to my liking, I have to believe that she is laughing up in Heaven while she helps things along.
*Dream House in INDY!!! (CHECK)
*Doug KEEPS his job in St. Louis and gets to work from home in Indy (CHECK)
*We sell our house in St. Louis before it even goes on the market for over asking price – say what?! (CHECK)
*IPHONE 6 (no CHECK. But Doug, see how I praised you? Don’t you think I’m deserving? Me too. I agree 100%)
I am chuckling right now because these are the kinds of things she would tease me for. I told my mom the other day that I am skeptical that all these rainbows are Shannon. Chrissy and I agree that we never ONCE heard Shannon comment on any sort of rainbow being glorious or spiritual or magical, and so it’s hard for me to believe that every time one pops up in the sky, it’s her. Don’t get me wrong. The one at the 5k, the one the week of her birthday, and the one today, while Connor was playing his last game of the season… TOTALLY her. But I just have a hard time with every single one being her! Though… it is comforting and I can hope and pray. My mom semi agreed, but reminded me that Shannon has made all of these things happen for us in an unusually timely manner so we can get to Indy and raise her boys. And ONCE AGAIN… mom is right. She really is looking out for baby sis!
On my journey to healing I have learned that the best way to honor somebody that you LOVE is to learn from them. Though our time was cut MUCH too short, I learned my life’s most valuable lessons from my sister. I watched her and idolized her for 30 years, and I will continue to learn from her as I pray to her in search of answers I wish she were here to tell me. I feel so blessed to be given this opportunity and hope you enjoy following us on this new journey. I miss her so much my heart aches as I type this…. but I also know that it is because she is still loving me that I can get through.
We are ALL so grateful to each and every one of you for the love and support you have shown us, and as a THANK YOU I wanted to make sure to keep you posted on our lives now and going forward. I am way behind on ACTUAL thank you’s! So please know that I am the most grateful and couldn’t do any of this without all of you! Wish us luck! I have a LOT to learn, but with Shannon in my corner, I just know everything is going to be ok. Oh and it doesn’t hurt that mom, dad, janet and family, the Greenes & the Utzingers are all within 1 mile of us 🙂 🙂 🙂 THANKS IN ADVANCE, guys!!
xxx Colleen & family